Center of Gravity

fall is next week. here are some things I’m excited about 

This time last year I was just beginning to train for the LA Marathon. I would wake up every morning at 5am; at one point, my midweek runs ranged from 5-8 miles long. I underestimated how much strain that would put on my body, and I spent months afterwards recovering from a stress fracture. Even so, I don’t look back on it with pain or regret. On my daily runs, there’d be this moment when the heat in my body would balance the cold in the air. Then, it would all kind of melt together. I miss that feeling. Recently I’ve been doing 2’s and 5’s but I think I’ll bump it up to 3’s and 7’s to take advantage of the season. If I feel good, I’ll sign up for a half marathon in spring. 

I wouldn’t have been able to survive 2025 without Tarot. Recently, I haven’t been as deeply into my intuition; I haven’t needed to be—I’ve had a clear enough direction to move without it. That’s about to change. I can sense chaos on the horizon and I’ll need to consult with the cards. The sequence of Libra > Scorpio > Sagittarius is a great time to lean into intuition. The Moon in particular is calling to me. I’ve never had the best relationship with that card, and more broadly, with Scorpio energy (too intense) but I’m feeling ready to crack it open. 

Recently, me and some friends have gotten into the Dungeon Crawler Carl series. Joey’s been generous enough to let me borrow his hard copies—the first physical books I’ve read in years. There’s something genuinely special about holding a real book in my hands. It feels wrong to say out loud, it’s so simple and pretentious, but I feel strongly enough about it that I need to include it here. Tangibility changes everything. More of this for sure. 

Last year I made horror movies my whole personality and guess what? I’m about to do it again. 31 horrors before Halloween, three from each decade starting in 1930. Fall is best suited for dark energy, contemplative morality, and violent catharsis. It’s almost like a yearly cleanse for me at this point, I’m really looking forward to it. 

one more to go

I’m not trying anything new this season and that’s by design. There’s plenty of novelty to be had in 2026, for now I’m just moving along and letting the chaos wash over me. I’m booked through November, and it doesn’t look like December will be any lighter either, so the kindest thing I can do for myself is stick to my comforts and take care of myself as the season turns one more time. Wish me luck!